So Very Tired, Lord

Lord Jesus, my God. This one’s for You. This blog is dedicated to You. blog 08-17-17

I’d like to start this prayer by saying I love You. It was You who allowed the poisons I ingested to disappear from my body, the ones I took in my early 20s, during my suicide attempt.

It was You who led me to the girl of my dreams, my little princess. Laura. She’s been by my side through thick and thin, more bad years than good, always laughing, always the same adorable smile, always the same strength. Strength of a lion, God. She’s so much stronger than I am.

It was You.

It was You who gave me my beautiful children. It was You who brought my daughter and my son-in-law out of the throws of drug addiction. It was You who restored their marriage. It was You who gave Jessy the strength to finish nursing school at the top of her class.

Dear Jessica, so beautiful. So strong, Lord. Like her mama. So much stronger than I could ever be.

Lord, You’re the One who gave me my son. You instilled in him a heart of gold, and talent beyond anything I could dream of. It was You, Lord.

Only You.

You are the One who has given me every good thing in my life. You are the One who has given me not only the hope of salvation, but of Heaven, Lord. It was You who led my ancestors through many challenging days, past death’s pale frame and right into Your arms, Lord.

I would like to ask one thing, Jesus. I’m tired. I’m so very tired today. I don’t know what else to say. I don’t know what else to do.

I just pray You give me strength. Give me the courage and tenacity to continue living for You in these difficult times. Allow me the spiritual brawn to lead my family to Your gates, Jesus.

Thank You for everything, Lord. I’m so very blessed.

Don’t you know? Haven’t you heard? The Lord, the Everlasting God, the Creator of the whole world, never gets tired or weary. His wisdom is beyond understanding. God strengthens the weary and gives vitality to those worn down by age and care (Isaiah 40:28-29).”

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