“I Feel Like a Freak”

“I feel like a freak. Like some kind of monster.”

This is a quote from a 32-year-old man from the TV show “My 600-lb Life.” He weighed 635 pounds at the time.

Perhaps you don’t have a weight issue like this (or maybe you do, which is ok). Seems everyone has SOMETHING they don’t like about themselves. I read an article several years ago which stated over 90% of the world’s top paid models had at least one bodily feature they hated about themselves.

Some of these issues carry over from childhood, be it a constant barrage of negativity from a parent or guardian, or derogatory names we may have had slung at us by other children.

Many of us harbor some type of hatred, toward ourselves, our detractors or both.

But that’s not what those around us see.

They see hate.

They see anger.

They hear insults and aggravation.

All our anger and self-hate comes spilling out on those we love the most, forcing us to push away the very ones whom the Lord sent to heal us.

It’s time we wake up and realize the people we take our anger out on are not, in most cases, the ones who birthed it in the first place.

I was talking to a friend of mine recently, and she said, “When I first met my husband I told him I am a beautiful person, and if he didn’t agree with that he could just keep on walking.”

I think this is an AMAZING attitude.

In the Bible, Jesus talked to the Samaritan woman at the well, which Jews typically didn’t do. He didn’t see an enemy, He saw a woman in pain.

Check this out:

“For You shaped me, inside and out. You knitted me together in my mother’s womb long before I took my first breath. I will offer You my grateful heart, for I am Your unique creation, filled with wonder and awe. You have approached even the smallest details with excellence; Your works are wonderful; I carry this knowledge deep within my soul. (Psalm 139:13-14).”

I don’t CARE what others have said about you, or what you’ve said about yourself. You need to realize you are a “unique creation, filled with wonder and awe.”

Your mom or dad called you “stupid” or “ugly” growing up?

Sorry, not to be rude but that’s a bunch of crap.

You’re not ugly.

You’re beautiful.

It’s ok, you don’t have to believe ME. Reread the verses above and see that God created you EXACTLY as you are, and loves you.

If those around you make you feel bad about yourself, perhaps it’s time to find a new crowd.

Death to self-loathing! You’re worthy of the love of God and others.

You are God’s unique creation.

You are not a freak.

Keep telling yourself this until it sinks in.

Many blessings, my friends.