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Death of A Porn Star

When I share my testimony with audiences, part of my story is the fact that, when I was in kindergarten, I was sexually abused by an older boy. As much as I’d love to keep this a secret, I am compelled by full disclosure, if only because it seems to be way more common than most think. Every time I share the story, at least one person comes up to me afterward and admits the same thing happened to them, but they never told anyone.

Studies show when a child’s mind is invaded with something as ugly as sexual abuse, it can cause a great amount of emotional damage. Many adults aren’t even ready to handle sex, so we can imagine how much MORE damaging this is on a child’s spirit.

So innocent, so precious…

“Ghosts crowd the young child’s fragile, eggshell mind.” (from “Peace Frog,” by The Doors, 1970)

My young mind being exposed to something as harmful as this type of abuse caused me to become addicted to pornography. By the time I was a preteen I was stealing X-rated magazines from the local grocery store, and within a couple years I had a large stack of them under my bed. I have an addictive personality, so, to be quite honest, I still fight with myself not to give in, ESPECIALLY in this day of “free porn on your computer and phone.”

They say (ya know, the infamous “they,” who say everything) a child is SO harmed by pornography and sexual abuse, in fact, the brain doesn’t know how to process it. One thing many drug addicts and adult film actors have in common (and many porn stars ARE drug addicts, from what I’ve learned) is they, too, were molested as children, in some form or fashion. Whether it be the perversion of pornography and sex addiction, or drugs and alcohol, they try to deal with this trauma the only way they know how.

What’s scary is that our children no longer have to hit up their pervert uncle for an adult movie on VHS, or steal a magazine from the grocery store. They can do an Internet search for “free porn” and get thousands and thousands of sites. This is one reason it’s VITAL we teach our kids right from wrong, and keep a close eye on what they are exposed to.

I am no psychologist or therapist, so I won’t go into the harms of pornography; there are hundreds of books and articles on that subject. No, I thought I’d take a different approach.

Below is a list of adult film actors, aka “porn stars,” who died at a young age, many due to their hazardous lifestyle or by their own hand. This list was compiled by Rev. Daniel R. Jennings, and only takes us from 1990 through 2009. A simple Google search for “porn stars who committed suicide” or “porn stars who overdosed,” however, will bring up dozens of articles.

The title of one article for LifeSite News, written by Jonathon Van Maren, says it all:

“Those porn stars you’re watching? Many of them are dead.”

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Stage Name

Real Name

Cause of Death

Year of Death

Age

Megan Leigh Michelle Maira Schei Suicide by self-inflicted gun shot wound 1990 26
Tony Bravo Michael Pietri AIDS 1990 31
Leo Ford Leo John Hilgeford Motorcycle accident 1991 34
Keith Anthoni Thom Plaski AIDS 1991 39
Lee Ryder Darras Robert Pyron AIDS 1991 31
Artie Mitchell Artie Mitchell Murdered by brother 1991 45
Nancee Kellee Kelly Jean Van Dyke Suicide by hanging 1991 33
Heaven St. John Dorothy Lee Perrins Cancer 1992 48
Tim Kramer Douglas Murrell Cooper AIDS 1992 34
Al Parker Andrew R. Okun AIDS 1992 40
Chanel Price Teri Price Drug overdose 1992 35
Lisa de Leeuw Lisa Trego AIDS complications 1993 45
Rod Phillips Gregory Leslie Patton AIDS complications 1993 32
Scott Bond N/A1 AIDS 1993 30
Clint Lockner Charles Romanski AIDS 1993 50
Stasha Rolando Angelo Leukemia 1993 24
Scott Taylor Scott Taylor Hampton AIDS 1994 40
Jeremy Scott Troy Andrew Meyers AIDS 1994 32
Glenn Steers Rick Sommers AIDS 1994 36
Joey Stefano Nicholas Anthony Iacona Drug overdose, HIV positive 1994 26
Savannah Shannon Michelle Wilsey Suicide by self-inflicted gunshot wound 1994 23
Jack Baker John Anthony Bailey Cancer 1994 47
Joe Simmons Thomas Williams AIDS 1995 30
Jon King N/A AIDS 1995 32
Pierce Daniels Russell Wallace AIDS 1995 36
Lon Flexx David Lee Anderson AIDS 1995 30
Ben Barker Rick Steven Sanford AIDS 1995 43
Jon King John Nelson Gaines AIDS complications 1995 32
Alex Jordan Karen Elizabeth Mereness Suicide by hanging 1995 27
Cal Jammer Randy Layne Potes Suicide by self-inflicted gun shot wound 1995 34
Richard Locke Richard Holt Locke AIDS 1996 55
Christian Fox Christopher John McLaughlin Suicide by drug overdose 1996 22
Steve Fox Rommel Eugene Hunt Suicide by self-inflicted gunshot wound 1997 31
Matt Gunther Steven Matthew Laing Heart attack 1997 33
Lee Baldwin John Francis Mallette Heart attack 1998 36
J. D. Ram David Perry Heroin overdose 1998 28
Wendy O’Williams Wendy Orlean Williams Suicide by self-inflicted gun shot wound 1998 48
Trinity Loren Joyce Evelyn McPherson Drug overdose 1998 34
Sparky O’Toole Donald Keith
Paton
AIDS 1999 31
David Morris N/A Drugs 1999 47
Lolo Ferrari Eve Valois Prescription drugs 2000 37
Jon Vincent Jeffrey James Vickers Heroin overdose 2000 37
Kyle Mckenna Russell Charles McCoy Suicide by drug overdose 2000 31
Leslie Glass Leslie Fisher Cancer 2000 36
Teri Diver Teri Diver Prescription drugs 2001 29
Brett Ford N/A AIDS 2001 31
Lynx Dyan N/A Cancer 2001 25
Amber Sexxxum N/A Undisclosed 2002 31
Elisa Bridges Elisa Rebeca Bridges Heroin and Meth overdose 2002 28
Mike Henson Kenneth Seymour HIV+ and overdosed on Heroin 2002 38
Sophie Roche N/A Suicide 2002 23
Naughtia Childs Megan Serbian Jumped off a balcony while high on drugs 2002 29
Linda Lovelace Linda Boreman Car accident 2002 53
Devon Renfro N/A Brain aneurysm 2002 21
Jay Anthony Jay Anthony Suicide 2003 27
Karen Dior Geoffrey Gann Cirrhosis of the liver and AIDS 2004 37
Rebecca Steele Jeanette Dee Rogers Drug overdose while suffering from AIDS 2004 42
Johnny Rahm Barry Rogers Suicide by hanging 2004 39
Lea De Mae Andrea Absolonova Brain cancer 2004 27
Taylor Summers Natel King Murdered after shooting an adult scene 2004 23
Chloe Jones Melinda Dee Jones Liver failure due to alcohol and drug abuse 2005 29
Eva Lux Leticia Lynn Blake Heroin overdose 2005 32
Juliette Jett N/A Heroin overdose 2005 28
Camilla De Castro Alessandro Caetano Kothenborger Jumped, fell or pushed from her 8th floor apartment 2005 26
Karen Lancaume Karine Bach Suicide by drug overdose 2005 32
Brittney Madison Stacey Pfeiffer Car accident 2005 21
Tim Barnett Bradford Thomas Wagner Suicide by hanging while in jail on rape charges 2005 37
Jasmine Grey Michelle Grayshaw Car accident 2005 21
Lance Heywood Rex Hickok Suicide by jumping off a building 2005 40
Julie Robbins Brandy Koonts From over 95% of her body being burned during a car accident 2005 26
Patrice Cabanel N/A Heart failure 2005 48
Devon Barry N/A Undisclosed illness 2005 28
Ursula Cavalcanti Patrizia Grazzini Cancer 2005 39
Michael Lennox N/A Undisclosed 2005 37
Yumika Hayashi N/A Became drunk and choked to death on her vomit while asleep 2005 35
Angela Devi Angela Shunali Dhingra Suicide by asphyxiation 2006 30
Anna Malle Anna Hotop Car accident 2006 38
Kirby Scott Joseph Myska Drug overdose 2006 44
Jon Dough Chester Anuszak Suicide by hanging 2006 43
Andy Dill Timothy Leon Chanaud Meningitis 2006 43
Clarissa Doll Clarissa Dana Biere Suicide 2006 26
Kristian Brooks Jason Kanarr AIDS 2006 35
Johnny Rey N/A AIDS and testicular cancer 2006 42
Austin Black N/A Liver cancer 2006 38
Candice Rialson N/A Liver failure 2006 54
Rocky N/A Cancer and AIDS 2006 26
Sheridan N/A Car accident 2006 20
Lori Michaels N/A Heart defect 2007 38
Joe Romero N/A Complications from HIV 2007 40
Haley Paige Maryam Irene Haley Possible murder, small amount of drugs found upon autopsy 2007 25
Kent North Ben Grey Drug overdose, possibly a suicide 2007 35
Lynden Thomas N/A Asthma attack 2007 25
Danny Dukes Daniel Salas, Jr. Heroin overdose 2007 33
Brett Mycles Robert Christopher Sager Heart attack induced by use of steroids 2007 29
Cody Foster Shawn L. Sumner AIDS complications and liver cancer 2007 36
Chico Wang Inkyo Volt Hwang Suicide by drug overdose 2007 38
Zoey Zane Emily Irene Sander Murdered 2007 18
Vanessa Freeman N/A Murdered by prostitution client 2007 30
Haus Weston Haus Weston Heart attack 2007 29
Danny Roddick Matthew Freitas Apparent drug overdose 2007 31
Anna Alexandre N/A Car accident 2007 27
Tiffani DiGivanni N/A Suicide 2007 21
Anastasia Blue Elena Behm Undisclosed 2008 28
Lolly Pop Mary Besesti Federica Heart attack 2008 37
Cole Ryder N/A Cause of death unknown, originally reported as a staph infection 2008 36
Missy Maria Christina Overdose of prescription drugs 2008 41

Check out these articles for more on this tragic phenomenon:

“16 Adult Stars Who Ended Their Own Lives” (https://www.ranker.com/list/adult-stars-who-committed-suicide/celebrity-lists)

“Porn industry reeling after five deaths in only three months” (https://www.news.com.au/lifestyle/real-life/news-life/porn-industry-reeling-after-five-deaths-in-only-three-months/news-story/e779587b387f0ad2b3ae71ec45f0c631)

“5 young female porn stars dead in 3 months: What is behind recent spate of deaths?” (https://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/5-young-female-porn-stars-dead-in-3-months-what-is-behind-recent-spate-of-deaths)

“‘Deaths of despair’ are rising among adult film actresses” (https://www.marketwatch.com/story/deaths-of-despair-are-rising-among-adult-film-actresses-2018-01-24)

And on and on it goes. To add insult to injury, many people don’t even care when an adult film actor dies, no matter the age or cause. A 23-year-old porn actress overdoses, and we chalk it up to her lifestyle. A 28-year-old porn actor puts a gun in his mouth, and we don’t bat an eye. A 25-year-old hangs herself, and we figure somehow they asked for it, I guess.

But these are still PEOPLE, for crying out loud. They’re still God’s children, and believe it or not, He still loves them. God never gives up on one of His children.

I know this is a HEAVY subject, but I wanted to bring it to the attention of some who may not have been aware.

“I made a covenant with my eyes not to look with lust at a young woman.” Job 31:1

Don’t be afraid to reach out for help, if this is a problem for you. There are millions of people who fight the good fight every day, even if we’re “not supposed to talk about it.”

Blessings.

7 comments on “Death of A Porn Star

  1. I think you’re very brave to tackle this issue. Thank you!

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    1. Rob Weddle says:

      Thanks, Carol. It’s one of those secrets nobody is supposed to talk about.

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      1. It’s been said, “our secrets keep us sick”. I think there is much truth to that. Shame is toxic and keeps us from growing.

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      2. Rob Weddle says:

        Well said. As long as people are choosing self-annihilation over self-incrimination, I will continue to speak out.

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      3. And I will be here applauding you and shouting out a loud Amen!

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      4. Rob Weddle says:

        Bless you for your encouraging spirit.

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      5. And may you continue to be blessed as well. Have a great week.

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