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We saw the movie “Instant Family” today at the theater. I laughed and cried, the latter of which is extremely rare for me.

I won’t give any of the plot away, but basically a happily married couple decided to become foster parents to a group of siblings. One was 15 years old, along with her younger brother and sister.

It was obviously very challenging for them, and the kids pushed every limit imaginable. They had been shuffled around so much and were leery of anyone claiming to love them. They were always wondering how long it would be before this couple gave up on them, too.

Just like all the others.

“We know you just took us in for the money, and to feel good about yourselves,” they seemed to say. “We don’t want your stinking pity.”

So they continued to rebel at every turn, pushing every boundary.

Kinda like I’ve done most of my life.

THAT’S what struck me halfway through the film: God CHOSE me, He adopted me (see verse below). Yet I continue to push the boundaries of His love. I keep on doing exactly what I know He doesn’t want me to do. I understand God sets the rules to keep me safe, but for some reason I continue to ignore them.

Part of me doesn’t feel worthy of His love. I suffer from low self-esteem, so maybe I don’t feel worthy of His love.

I don’t know.

All I know is that, as hard as I’ve ran from the Lord, He still cherishes me.

I’ve tried to push His love away, feeling like He doesn’t REALLY want me.

I don’t need His stinking pity.

But like this couple in the movie, God has never quit loving me. He’s never left me. So finally, after decades of pushing the limits, I am giving myself fully to Him.

I’m yours, Lord, such as I am.

I don’t have a clue why, but for some inexplicable reason, You love me.

You chose me. You adopted me.

“Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy by his love. Long, long ago he decided to adopt us into his family through Jesus Christ. (What pleasure he took in planning this!)

From Ephesians 1 (The Message)”

You dared to love me when nobody else wanted me. So I am Yours, Lord.

My whole life is Yours.

Thanks for never giving up on me, even when I tried to push You away.
Parents who conceive their children naturally don’t get to choose them, but us adoptees were hand-picked by the Creator to be His sons and daughters.

And it’s AWESOME being part of the family!!

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